Thursday, October 11, 2007::tired::
::11 oct,thurs::
haiz xian.. i think tues that biology test gone le ba.. total dunno how to do.. oh no.. i think i can't reach the target le ba..
give up.. haiz..
at times even have the most extreme idea of not coming to sch or even quit sch.. bec really tired.. lost hope.. felt lonely.. and stuff..
haiz.. sometimes i dunno why have this very lonely and wierd feeling.. even though all my frends are arould mi.. bf with mi.. also can't keep this feeling of loneliness away.. haiz..
am i getting the pre symtoms of depression???
am i going crazy???
i just feel so not like my self.. arhh... haiz..
::11 oct,thurs::
haiz xian.. i think tues that biology test gone le ba.. total dunno how to do.. oh no.. i think i can't reach the target le ba..
give up.. haiz..
at times even have the most extreme idea of not coming to sch or even quit sch.. bec really tired.. lost hope.. felt lonely.. and stuff..
haiz.. sometimes i dunno why have this very lonely and wierd feeling.. even though all my frends are arould mi.. bf with mi.. also can't keep this feeling of loneliness away.. haiz..
am i getting the pre symtoms of depression???
am i going crazy???
i just feel so not like my self.. arhh... haiz..
written at 9:35 am
Monday, October 08, 2007::SUPPER SURPRISSED::
::6 oct, sat::
::6 oct, sat::
today went out with bf to celebrate my birthday... meet at 3.30pm but i only went down at around 4pm.. hahaha.. bec no matter how i wear or change it doesn't seems to be 'correct'. and a bigger news impact was that i met my parents at the lift so i asked them if i looked ok.. the responsed i got made mi very sad.. my dad laughed and said that i look like those singer and going to performed like that.. and my mom was just smiling away.. arhh.. so sad lor.. do i look that bad.. and dressed that bad.. ={
when i met bf.. i told him abt that and i cried.. bec to mi its a very heart breaking thing to be laughed by my parents.. arhh.. and when i walk i felt people staring at mi.. arhh so paisay.. but bf say i'm not ugly but very pretty.. haiz.. wat can i do but to believe him lor.. even though i still feel very wierd..
bf gave mi flowers.. 12 stalks of beautiful roses..
den we went to vivo to walk.. see pets.. arhh.. king charles is soooo cute.. bought mango juice.. went to toy'r'us to turn capsule.. and i turned 1 as hanna's present.. hahaha.. and continue walking.. bec he is waiting for 6.30pm, where is offical programme starts..
in the mean time i peaking at the presents.. but he kept on telling mi that my present was a bottle of slik pro.. so bad lor.. and i thought he was buying that for mi bec he says that i told him to buy budget presents for mi so he bought a little better than cheap present which is silk pro.. (-.-') but when we walked pass a shop selling O.D.M i had a small second thought but he still say he bought silk pro.. arhh.. slik pro and slik pro only.. =(
finally after much much of walking his show time came.. and he told mi that i'm having salmon for dinner.. when we walked pass sushi teh i thought we are having that.. but NO.. when we reached habour front he ask mi to guess what we are having, i said sake sushi.. again NO.. den we walked to tower 2 where the cable car is.. finally then i know we are having the cable car dinner or sky dinner.. arhh.. OMG.. i'm so shocked.. bec i nv expected to be that.. then when we borded the complimentry ride to mt. faber, i cried in the cable car.. bec i nv expected that he would plan that.. bec before that he gave alot of shit idea of wat we are having.. eg, swensen, red white pure, musscle man, sentosa, take a cable car ride.. so i asked him why he thought of that.. he said bec i mentioned to him that i wanted to ride a cable car and we nv had fine dining before thus he thought of that.. both fine dinning and solid 2h of cable car ride..
this is so unreal lor.. hahaha.. i'm so SURPRISSED.. and i even saw my sec sch teacher there with a lady but i nv say hi to him bec paisay and dun wan to disturb.. hahaha..
~the starters~
we took pics in between the ride as our next course would only arrived when the cable car has finish 1 'lap' starting at mt. faber and ending at mt.faber...
~bf posing with the fan that they provided us.. bec inside will be a bit warm ba.. hahaha..
~pardon for the brightness bec use flash bec very dark.. hahaha..
~my main course..
~bf's main course..
~our desert~
~the new bridge~
~PSA~
~night view of the bridge and sea~
~beautiful cable car in a row~
~pic together~
~O.D.M watch~
arhh.. i got a shock again.. my 'silk pro' present.. again i cried.. hahaha.. i think i cried a total of 4 times that day lor.. hahaha...
the watch is so beautiful rite.. yet it was 'broken' as the strap was a bit spoilt.. haiz.. so have to take it for repair tomorrow, sun.. ={
after that we went to cine to watch resident evil.. hahaha.. and he help mi wear that watch o.. hehehe.. so sweeta..
when we reached cine i went to see my good frend hwee leng.. i think i shocked her ba.. hahaha.. paisay..
den go buy tibits for the movie.. arhh... its so damn nice lor.. dun mind watching it again in com.. hahaha.. alice is sooo cool.. how i wish i can be like her.. hahaha...
den bf sent mi home.. bec late le.. and he also very tired ba.. bec he spent alot of time to prepare this PERFECT birthday for mi..
bf gave mi flowers.. 12 stalks of beautiful roses..den we went to vivo to walk.. see pets.. arhh.. king charles is soooo cute.. bought mango juice.. went to toy'r'us to turn capsule.. and i turned 1 as hanna's present.. hahaha.. and continue walking.. bec he is waiting for 6.30pm, where is offical programme starts..
in the mean time i peaking at the presents.. but he kept on telling mi that my present was a bottle of slik pro.. so bad lor.. and i thought he was buying that for mi bec he says that i told him to buy budget presents for mi so he bought a little better than cheap present which is silk pro.. (-.-') but when we walked pass a shop selling O.D.M i had a small second thought but he still say he bought silk pro.. arhh.. slik pro and slik pro only.. =(
finally after much much of walking his show time came.. and he told mi that i'm having salmon for dinner.. when we walked pass sushi teh i thought we are having that.. but NO.. when we reached habour front he ask mi to guess what we are having, i said sake sushi.. again NO.. den we walked to tower 2 where the cable car is.. finally then i know we are having the cable car dinner or sky dinner.. arhh.. OMG.. i'm so shocked.. bec i nv expected to be that.. then when we borded the complimentry ride to mt. faber, i cried in the cable car.. bec i nv expected that he would plan that.. bec before that he gave alot of shit idea of wat we are having.. eg, swensen, red white pure, musscle man, sentosa, take a cable car ride.. so i asked him why he thought of that.. he said bec i mentioned to him that i wanted to ride a cable car and we nv had fine dining before thus he thought of that.. both fine dinning and solid 2h of cable car ride..
this is so unreal lor.. hahaha.. i'm so SURPRISSED.. and i even saw my sec sch teacher there with a lady but i nv say hi to him bec paisay and dun wan to disturb.. hahaha..
~our dinner~
~the starters~we took pics in between the ride as our next course would only arrived when the cable car has finish 1 'lap' starting at mt. faber and ending at mt.faber...
~bf posing with the fan that they provided us.. bec inside will be a bit warm ba.. hahaha..
~pardon for the brightness bec use flash bec very dark.. hahaha..
~my main course..
~bf's main course..
~our desert~~pics of scenery~
~the new bridge~
~PSA~
~night view of the bridge and sea~
~beautiful cable car in a row~
~pic together~..........present time..........
~O.D.M watch~arhh.. i got a shock again.. my 'silk pro' present.. again i cried.. hahaha.. i think i cried a total of 4 times that day lor.. hahaha...
the watch is so beautiful rite.. yet it was 'broken' as the strap was a bit spoilt.. haiz.. so have to take it for repair tomorrow, sun.. ={
after that we went to cine to watch resident evil.. hahaha.. and he help mi wear that watch o.. hehehe.. so sweeta..
when we reached cine i went to see my good frend hwee leng.. i think i shocked her ba.. hahaha.. paisay..
den go buy tibits for the movie.. arhh... its so damn nice lor.. dun mind watching it again in com.. hahaha.. alice is sooo cool.. how i wish i can be like her.. hahaha...
den bf sent mi home.. bec late le.. and he also very tired ba.. bec he spent alot of time to prepare this PERFECT birthday for mi..
......finally....
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING U HAD DONE FOR MI.... =}
written at 8:46 am
Thursday, October 04, 2007::wishlist::
::4 oct, thurs::
haiz.. b.day coming.. both happy and fan nao ba..
older liao..
more spentrif..
.
.
.
.
.
my wishlist...
-O.D.M watch
-N.U.M bag
-prettier
-younger
-better complexion
-better skin
-bag
-jeanes
-skirts
-dresses
-blouse
-make-ups
-many many money
-etc.
hahahahaha....
::4 oct, thurs::
haiz.. b.day coming.. both happy and fan nao ba..
older liao..
more spentrif..
.
.
.
.
.
my wishlist...
-O.D.M watch
-N.U.M bag
-prettier
-younger
-better complexion
-better skin
-bag
-jeanes
-skirts
-dresses
-blouse
-make-ups
-many many money
-etc.
hahahahaha....
written at 11:57 am
